Meltdown - Life related
I had a semi- M-E-LLLL-T-D-o-w-n today.
My beautiful laptop is on life support as I write, (on Mr. AM's computer) and on its way out. Now normally this would be a traumatic event, particularly as nothing is backed up, but this is a life ending, earth shattering, I don't know how to go on event for me. I finish school in a week, and start exams thereafter. I want to die.
It's funny how the death of your computer puts your life on computer into perspective. All those shoulda woulda backups now seem so tangible, so full of purpose.
New losses kept popping into my head all day, Ohhh, our pictures from Miami, ohhhh, all of my wedding - scrapbook collecting what bouquet, dress, venue - I want pictures, OHHHH the wedding guest list, OMIGOSH the wedding guest list! AND addresses, OHHH NO!, And so on and so on. My mind is a whirlwind. All this after contemplating the horrific loss of my entire law school semester - of which I have exams in a couple of weeks - I think I mentioned that already, but it's a sore spot right about now.
I keep a chirpy, somewhat sated, denial like, zen mentality as my computer is currently at the the computer doctor, otherwise dubbed "Geek squad member" - who I told in very certain terms, "this is my life, you cannot let it die, at least not without retrieving all of my information first, as I literally put on the intake form, when asked what information I wanted retrieved: EVERYTHING!
So we'll see. I have faith. We've been through a lot together. Me and my laptop. I'm sure she'll pull out of this one.
And if she doesn't she'll grace with me her files at the very least. Please....I pray.
My beautiful laptop is on life support as I write, (on Mr. AM's computer) and on its way out. Now normally this would be a traumatic event, particularly as nothing is backed up, but this is a life ending, earth shattering, I don't know how to go on event for me. I finish school in a week, and start exams thereafter. I want to die.
It's funny how the death of your computer puts your life on computer into perspective. All those shoulda woulda backups now seem so tangible, so full of purpose.
New losses kept popping into my head all day, Ohhh, our pictures from Miami, ohhhh, all of my wedding - scrapbook collecting what bouquet, dress, venue - I want pictures, OHHHH the wedding guest list, OMIGOSH the wedding guest list! AND addresses, OHHH NO!, And so on and so on. My mind is a whirlwind. All this after contemplating the horrific loss of my entire law school semester - of which I have exams in a couple of weeks - I think I mentioned that already, but it's a sore spot right about now.
I keep a chirpy, somewhat sated, denial like, zen mentality as my computer is currently at the the computer doctor, otherwise dubbed "Geek squad member" - who I told in very certain terms, "this is my life, you cannot let it die, at least not without retrieving all of my information first, as I literally put on the intake form, when asked what information I wanted retrieved: EVERYTHING!
So we'll see. I have faith. We've been through a lot together. Me and my laptop. I'm sure she'll pull out of this one.
And if she doesn't she'll grace with me her files at the very least. Please....I pray.
posted by Miss Adams Morgan at 6:13 PM
2 Comments:
I know so well how you feel. It is SO overwhelming sometimes it just kills all the joy. I hope we don't let it!
my computer died recently too but fortunately we were able to revive it. I hope it works out for you...
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